It haunts like a never ending plague
The stench of failure
Putrid and suffocating
Hounding like an ancient mad dog
Hysteria sings a song
As she began to sleep soundly in the heart
The hope lost was never of any existence
Haunted by the trees and breeze
Haunted by the whisper of a word
Chased by the songs of life
Which only plays a tune of melancholy
Sadness is never foreign where joy never was
Like daily bread
Being haunted was a regular norm
Do not think you are ever alone
You are surrounded by the stars that glows
The rivers that forever flows
All of natures delightful wonder
The universe speaks to you at every moment
There is always companionship
Though you seem to be isolated
It tells of peace available when you look within
From the inside can the universe first be revealed
There is a friend in everything that grows
The plant and trees speak to you
They tell you to cheer up
There is great peace within you
The animals you see give a beacon of hope
You are not alone
Surrounded by all wonderful created things,you are
This is going to be a more personal post.You see I’m not used to telling much about myself to the outside world.But I’ve decided to do more of it because my stories deserve to be heard.I’m writing this post with another person’s phone.Mine had suddenly stopped functioning.This all happened so suddenly.Even my memory card which contain so many things had got missing.I had no idea how or when.This happened in a day.I can’t use my laptop to blog because it has no internet connection on it.So here I am improvising with my mother’s phone.I’ve just arrived home for my holidays in case you are wondering.
Why am I saying all these?The upheavals of life is the reason why.There is a reason Buddhists are not attached to any person or thing.Things come and go, so total reliance on anything physical results to disappointment.Many times it is impossible to control the twists and turns of the future,making frustration is prone.
The test is in how you use the new challenges life brings.Will it be used for better or worse?The answer lies in the steps taken.See a challenge as a means to elevating your consciousness.I remember downloading a “good luck” app on my phone yesterday.The app let’s you make wishes and I saw good reviews on it.Several people said that it made their wish come true. Me being myself,i downloaded the app to try it.I made several wishes including being happy,rich and successful.The happiness and success wish was a big one for me,as they both went together in my opinion.
Strangely enough after making all my wishes,i restarted my phone only for it not to work anymore.I wondered if the universe was playing a trick on me. The phone had been showing signs of faults but this was too sudden.I make wishes only for my life to become worse,right?After several rounds of trying to charge the phone and failing to get it to start,i gave up.I opened the phone and with frustration yanked out the two sim cards and memory card.I did this without looking at it.When I looked I only found my sim cards out,my memory card was no where to be found.This made me think if I had bad luck.
I wondered why that app did not bring good luck.I wanted happiness but I got sadness;success but got failure.But now that I think of it,maybe that was what was needed to be happy.Maybe I needed to be free from my phone addiction and doing the same things over and over again.Maybe I needed a fresh new start!It could be that the universe wants me to do as Buddhists do and learn not to be attached.Sometimes happiness and success comes in unexpected ways.
This might be a test of character or might be indeed good luck.It could be a time for leaving old damaging habits behind.I feel it’s a time to know my worth and know that it is not in a bunch of pictures,pdfs and files. Everyone should.Though I don’t encourage people to throw their phones away or delete all their stuff,the need for breaking bad repetitive habits is important.A time away from what you are used to everyday will give time for self evaluation.
Sometimes motivation finds you,sometimes you find it yourself.
Keeping up with the tides of the universe
The flow of the atmosphere
The rhythm of the earth
Asteroids clash and combust on the milky way
The splash of fire like the death of a rebirth
Whispers of the voices of nature
Soothing the relief of ever fresh wounds
Giving birth to new ideas which were raised from those which died
Burning brightly,Phoenix like
The waves have a way
Softening the rough edges and getting the frail sides stronger
Building it all solid
the law of polarity
The same perspective presented in multiple ways
Layers of love flowers
waiting to be claimed and embraced
Fluttering ever so incospiciously
The enigma of life,it ever flows
beauty of the universe
We as humans are always on a never ending adventure to figure out what our purpose in life is,to know the truth of our existence.We ponder and question various sources and the most philosophical of us wait for a signal,an acurate meaning that will resonate with us.Finding out that such does not truely exist,some might become broken individuals,after chasing a question with no exact answer.Finding nothing to be worthwhile since nothing answers those deepest questions buried in the minds.
But why did we go on this journey in the first place.Towards what end?What epiphany did we expect to get.Usually what is seen as the end result is not as euphoric as imagined.The very “why” of our being and existence was lost in a maze of unanswerable questions.We had forgotten to look within ourselves for the inner vault of wisdom we seek.The wisdoms that no book can teach,though grows with the usefulness of information we acquire.The feeling of completeness and satisfaction no search can give is inside of us.We had thought that “the search” is what would complete all we are or everything we wanted to be,neglecting the growth of our inner self-the true essence of our being.
Sometimes we search too much.We build castles in the sky and let unicorns roam the milky way.We digest the knowledge of a thousand sages and forget our own truth.Quoting the words of a thousand philosophers yet with no philosophy of our own.Living our life according to the laws of a man,who existed in a different state of mind,in a different time and a different purpose.Our dreams,another person’s.We begin to live other people’s lives,or try to carve our destiny without knowing exactly what we want deep down.
Once you stop looking for what you want,you will find what you need-anon.
Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything.Maybe it’s about unbecoming everything that isn’t really you,so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.