The soul searches
In deep ends
Edges blurred out with darkness
For spots of light
Desperation in complexities
To understand the workings
Of all which functions
In the realms beyond human understanding
We were made to feel this way
If our nature be our fault
For when we always go wrong
Minute object without jurisdiction
If things truly change
Could it come quicker
Will the tides ever shift?
Our names faded
The images paint blood in my soul
My insignificance remains
Maybe a bit dramatized
But the concept is true
Unrestrained may be my thoughts
To flow from whatever source
When the mind decided to shut up no more
With a unique style
Un proud yet unashamed
Small remains only in the mind that lies to itself
Asante sana,my beloved
The ability to develop certain features to withstand different environments and conditions.Every living creature adapts.This is a skill all humans possess.In animals and plant life,the features are more physiological,while in people they are of a psychological/behavioral kind.
I have found out the answer I was searching for.What makes particular people in humanity trive and survive?Like most great answers,it is very simple.Adaptation.This is what influences growth.It makes a millionaire rich and it has the same driving force that enables the same millionaire to have no problem being one,even when all wealth is taken away.
When there are hardships learn how to adapt to it.When you are struggling with lack of money,adapt and grow.When money comes,get used to the flow and spend accordingly.Adaptation is an important life force.We are starting to forget this power we have inside of us due to recent occurrences.A constant rememberance is necessary to use our inbuilt magic worker.
Do not think you are ever alone
You are surrounded by the stars that glows
The rivers that forever flows
All of natures delightful wonder
The universe speaks to you at every moment
There is always companionship
Though you seem to be isolated
It tells of peace available when you look within
From the inside can the universe first be revealed
There is a friend in everything that grows
The plant and trees speak to you
They tell you to cheer up
There is great peace within you
The animals you see give a beacon of hope
You are not alone
Surrounded by all wonderful created things,you are
Let me deceive myself,please
For it is much easier this way
Once I enjoy my bowl of lies
Then I will move on again
If the cure to pain is delusion
Aren’t I allowed to have it?
Who am I to act strong?
When I face an impossible truth
They say when your life is falling apart
The end result might be pleasant
But for me,I am too scared to face this
Maybe one day I will look back and laugh
Thinking I was so wrongly afraid
But today,give me my bowl of lies
Since I need it to survive
Then let me have it,please!
“Cheap fabrics,cheap meals”
“I deserve more than this!”
But what did you do for yourself?
Did you go out to work
Rather than sit and complain
Daydreaming of gold and silver
Craving for the riches of the earth
Even when it stared at you in the mirror
The underestimation of what you can do yourself
Without the nagging and begging
Or waiting for a guilty meal ticket
You deserve more,
only when you give more, in talent and practicality
If you don’t know what “INFP” personality type means,i suggest you check out the Myer Briggs personality typing out.There are 16 personality types according to the MBTI,and also some not so major sub types,eg:A and T categories,etc.As an INFP here are some things I struggle with on a daily bases.
The INFP is know as the dreamer/mediator/healer personality.
I sometimes find myself in a state of constant daydream.Can you believe it, if I say I have created a complete world in my head.This world is filled with people both imaginative and real,performing the functions that I assign to them.Many will not be able to fully comprehend this.My world is a perfect rich make believe land, but it has troubles too.It can be hard to snap out of it,but I can always clearly distinguish my reality from my fantasy.This can lead me to being lazy when I’m actually ambitious.The INFP contradiction.
Because of my type,i’m prone to depression and being down on myself.I see the terrible things going on in the world and I know it can never be perfect.This makes me feel sad.I absolutely hate injustice and everyday I hope I can do more.I stand with the underdogs than the ones on top because I believe they need my help the most.I am unconventional and it puts me into trouble many times…I don’t share popular views and it angers people.I stand firm in my believe which I have a conviction about,not letting anyone shake me.
I am an introvert. Some people misinterpret this to mean that I am stuck up.My resting bitch face doesn’t help either.They think I am just strange or act above them when I desperately tried to fit in.Well,at this point,i’m done with all that.I sometimes say I’m a proud loner or a happy wallflower,unlike some wannabe wallflowers-those who say that to seem emo.But I’m not alone,my rich mind and world is my company any where I go.Literature and art is my medium.The need to end humanities pain is my motivator.I let my INFP creativity guide me.
I need constant stimulation,i get bored easily so my mind is always spinning with ideas.I abhor useless small talk yet I detest those who have nothing deep to say.I once cut ties with someone whose mind had no imagination,let me do all the talking and had nothing to say about the state of the world.I detest shallow people.Those who have no ideas of their own.Nothing to say that comes out of their own contemplation but what the media has told them.Those that cannot observe around them.The ones that live to just exist.The energy vampires that frustrate you,without you knowing why.
I hate injustice and double standards.Just as I stand for what’s right,i can turn a blind eye if you complain of injustice,while you are the type to be cruel.I’m not a people’s pleaser,a butt kisser,a social butterfly-so I have problems.I’m very thankful I was born INFP but also burdened.Sometimes I just get angry,if I was God I would have ended the world a long time ago.
Some people have literally told me that I think in a weird way, which was bad to them.I remember two people telling me to change the way I think.Why will I ever do that,lol.I know that I am superb to the extent of causing people confusion.As a child,i was shamed for being ‘too quiet” in public by my family.I was mocked for the way my voice went three times lower when I wanted to buy things.But now that my voice is all the way powerful,it does not stop family folks from looking for a button to push.
My room is messy,i get anxious easily,i have social anxiety,i am probably more radical than anyone you’ve ever seen,I appear cold but have a deep well of feelings,i am creative, disappointed and bored with the school system, I read for knowledge’s sake,brave,unconvention,free and most of all Me.
I am a proud INFP,no matter the struggles
Watch out for part two
There is no death
Only new beginnings
For flowers bloom afresh
Manure becomes a friend
There is no death
As my heart broke to pieces
Only to be mended again
To re break itself
There is no death
When I see your tears
And I feel your fears
I hope you do not fret
Because death does not exist
What might be life for you
Might be death for another
So there is no death
Only life in a different form
As the world advances,people increasingly fall into a pit of loneliness.Human contact has washed away to meaningless interactions.The social media world has inspired people to present a fake version of themselves. Loneliness happens when the true self has been ignored or hidden in the shadows for too long.The people pleasing masks worn creates a vacuum in our souls that longs to be filled.
The cure for loneliness is ourselves.It begins within.In order to be free from it,learning to love our real selves is necessary.Not the one forcefully presented on Instagram,or the fake one that we show family and friends.It is the hidden self which was long avoided.Being comfortable and at ease with ourselves is the cure for loneliness.Our fears and love which makes us real must be acknowledged in order to be free.It is a journey of self finding.
Meditation,soul searching and spiritual awakening is needed.We must ask-what makes us us?For ourselves we must see the composition of which our souls are formed.If we can be at peace with our real selves,we will not be lonely.We will be filled with light and love.Those that are truly meant for us will remain attracted to that light.
Happiness would become a familiar concept when you know yourself.